Let’s talk about flaws.
I read a quote today: “You cannot truly grow as a person if you do not accept who you really are.”
So, flaws. We all got ’em! It doesn’t make us any less than anybody else.
Now here’s my issue. I can accept who I am most of the time – my awkward jokes, my hair that always curls and frizzes, my lack of ability in any mathematical skills, my forgetfulness. That’s okay. I can deal with that.
But, I can’t accept the fact that I lie.
I tend to lie, tiny little white lies, because I don’t want to hurt people. That’s why I do it. No other reason. I do it subconsciously & it has been a major issue in my relationships. It comes from a good place, and I never mean anything mean or malicious by doing it. I just hate causing any conflict at all in my life.
I don’t always lie. I just…omit the truth, or tell it in a very casual, roundabout way. I tip-toe around people’s feelings. I don’t like to hurt people so I just don’t say anything, even when it is very important.
I hurt myself by hurting others, when I tried to avoid hurting them in the first place (what a mouthful!) By them finding out I had not told them something important, and being disappointed that I hadn’t mentioned it.
I have told myself, time and time again – I will be better. I will tell the truth no matter what. No matter how big. And in all seriousness, I have gotten better. I have been a more honest, open person.
But, because we are human, and you can’t fight nature – sometimes, I just do it again. It’s all down to me wanting to be the best that I can be. And when I’m not? Disappointment in myself.
But really, I have to accept there are parts of me that are just that. They are me. No one else